Dear friends,

As we come closer to our time together in Croatia (Zenith Retreat), I want to share a shift that is unfolding in me—as it will affect this retreat.

For the past decade+, there has been a strong pull into deeper silence and dissolution of attention itself. In the past, I could regularly “resist” this gravitational pull with a sense of service through words and teaching. But in recent months, particularly starting around the time of the London Freedom Talk, that balance started to shift. What once felt necessary as my calling/duty/honor to share, lead, write or build, has been spoken, written, constructed, or entrusted sufficiently to my team. What remains most natural now is transparency and silence itself. Transparency of Awareness and its beingness, to the undifferentiated, quality-less Infinity beneath it all.

Because of this “inward” draw, I will likely appear less interactive, charismatic, and personable during this retreat compared to what you may have come to expect. Some words may flow out of me, but many more will not. I have not taken a vow of silence, and it is not that this transparency cannot speak, it’s just that it naturally tends to express itself as silence since it does not entertain any separation or differentiation, and it rarely perceives a good reason to construct concepts.

As I’m losing my willingness to pick up complex thoughts and mirror-like personality-constructs to interact, reflect or present through, as a natural result, I may not acknowledge your personality-construct much either during this retreat. To the degree that you are identified with your personality, you may feel ignored or under-validated by me in such moments. I encourage you not to take this as judgmental or as a lack of love for you, but as an acknowledgement and love of your true Self instead. 

You can use such “non-relational” or seemingly non-reciprocal encounters as mirrors to drop into your true Self beyond your own sense of personhood, and join me in the silence of Truth. Besides, this attitude aligns with this retreat’s core intention (Becoming Men and Women of God).

Also, I must share: there is still a small chance that I will be completely silent during this retreat. But I currently read this probability as being less than 10%. It is more likely that I will still remain available to feel the “current” to speak, teach to an extent, and engage as a personality in relevant bursts. Think 80% silence, 20% outward engagement, and active teaching.

I personally believe it is an upgrade that offers you an up-close opportunity to taste first-hand what a deepening, closer to endgame transparency to Source “feels like.” When someone is rapidly running out of words, duties and actions, being drawn entirely into the silence of Oneness—what does that feel like vibrationally? I wanted to inform you of this so you can decide for yourself how you wish to re-calibrate yourself to this event.

What can you expect? More space for transparency-emitted silence, presence, and transmission, and a joyful "falling away" of everything unnecessary. My team will step in more to facilitate, to fill in any essential teaching gaps which my silence would otherwise leave, to guide through Q&A and workshops, and to carry forward the teachings in a living way together with all of you who participate. They will step in not just to fill empty space or to "buff up" the retreat as if it were a consumer-friendly product, but to help fully land the intention of this retreat within you. In addition, you will naturally be drawn in to really co-create this event and fulfill your own intention.

As I read my current deepening transparency arc, I expect I will still set the vibrational tone for the intention of each day, sometimes in silence, sometimes with a few words, and in slightly more words when needed or if it’s an essential topic I have not yet explicitly explained in-depth before. 

In short: The core intention for the Zenith Retreat remains the same. Its daily intentions (see itinerary) also remain the same. Only now, it will be carried more fully by silence itself, alongside facilitation from my team and your own participation, with fewer—but more potent and niche—teaching segments from me.

Retreat prep (getting on the same page): I encourage you all to read the book (ME: A Book About You) and/or watch the Amsterdam Weekend Immersive recordings prior to the Zenith retreat, so you know everything you need to know. In this way, whatever I do teach will be the subtler nuances specifically relevant to this retreat’s intention, and not repeated data. The more fresh, subtle or cutting-edge the question or desire is, the more likely it is that speech will flow naturally from me as a greater relevance or need is then sensed in the field to answer the request.

I intend to be physically present during most sessions and I may comment or fine-tune where truly needed during the facilitator-led segments. However, the “main show” at this retreat will not be a teacher; it will be your own embodiment of God-consciousness and its integration into a loving, joyful, devoted, single lifestream—naturally of service to all. I will be the silent stage itself (80%) on which this all finds its beautiful focus in you, rather than your familiar teacher on the stage (20%). 

This is not a withdrawal from my end, but a deepening. It is an invitation to discover that transparency-emitted silence reveals more than words ever could. 

Beyond Croatia, the only remaining God Tour event is the 12-day Silent Desert Immersion (application-based), which is already silence-based, so no recalibration is needed for that one. My expectation for the Desert Immersion is 95-98% silence vs. 2-5% teaching/relating/engagement, from my end.

After these two retreats, I do not foresee myself offering any organized events; neither in person nor online. If outward teaching/expression continues, it will do so purely in its own spontaneous way—not through intention-to-teach, reason or organization. 

Going forward, I’m confident my team will continue to provide and organize my past words skillfully and honorably, and be themselves a bridge, for those who still seek to understand what the words truly point to and who perhaps need more structure, kinship and concepts than pure silence offers the mind.

Thank you for your trust, and for walking together in this unfolding. You are loved.

With the homecoming presence of an increasingly “loud” absence,

Bentinho